Let's let X1 and X2 be girls, and Y1 and Y2 be the respective girls' boyfriends. (that is, Y1 is X1's boyfriend, and Y2 is X2's boyfriend). Let's let E1 and E2 be male friends of the girls, and other variables/definitions will be defined as we come to them. Also, X1, X2, Y1, Y2, E1, and E2 have at least heard of each other. X1 and X2 are good friends, X1 and Y2 can at least be considered friends, X1 thinks E2 is a retard, Y1 and X2 are friends (I guess), Y1 and Y2 hate each other, E1 and Y2 are very close friends. Now, for the equations:

X1 + Y1 + E1 Relationship score of 5. This score would be higher, but Y1 doesn't particularly like E1, due to worries that E1 is trying to horn in on X1, as E1 and X1 spend a lot of time together without Y1. Both X1 and E1 know that Y1 has nothing to worry about, as X1 and E1 are simply just friends. X1 + Y1 relationship score reaches Level 10, engagement. For some reason, X2 is determined to convince Y2 that X1 + Y1 + E1 actually = lots of wild sex between X1 and E1. Due to Y2 and E1's solid friendship, Y2 never fully buys into this equation despite not being particularly fond of Y1, tho he does occasionally make comments about the possible (though neither probable nor provable) copious amounts of wild sex between X1 and E1 out of love and respect for the manipulative X2.

X2 + Y2 + E2 = Y2 is rather fond of E2 but is worried about E2, X2 proclaims intense lack of desire for E2, and Y2 grudgingly accepts this, tho remaining worried. Relationship score of X2 + Y2 begins to approach 0. Y2 tries to prevent score from reaching 0, but X2 makes a preemptive strike, and Y2 is unable to stop the relationship score from hitting the dreaded 0, breakup. Shortly thereafter, Y2's fears = confirmed, as we then have:

X2 + E2 = positive relationship score.

What happened to Y2 in the equation?


Please note all variables are just that: variables. They do not in any way, shape, or form purposely describe any real person, living or dead. Any similarities between any real persons, living or dead, is strictly coincidental. Ok, not really. Anybody read this ever? Anybody care to guess wtf this is talking about?

So, for those of you that read my myspace blog, and are wondering what my epiphany was about, I'm gonna tell you here.

On the way home tonight, I was listening to AM 690, which had "All Night" on. It was 3am. WJOX 690 countsdown to college football starting around march or so, telling you how many days to football it was on the hour every hour 24 hours a day. So I heard

"The A-Tix Countdown...is on! College football kicks off in.....FIFTY ONE days!"

As is fairly typical, I was thinkin' about Jeanny. Then it dawned on me.



I've never had a relationship survive football season. I really hope this does not hold continue to hold true for this relationship -- I absolutely adore this girl. but, I admit, it has me worried.

Especially when considering that we are both on record saying we don't want anything supersupersuper serious, it sure does seem to be heading that direction awfully quick. And I'm not complaining at all.

She met my family last night. It went...surprisingly well. Although I think Dad thinks she's like 12.

So, after church tonight, I went for it.

Success!! Praise and glory to God!

Ok so, i'm an idiot.

There is this girl I used to work with, and now go to church with. We'll call her J. Wonderful girl. Incredibly beautiful. Good Christian. Likes Star Wars. Likes stupid movies like Spaceballs, even. She even likes college football. Needless to say, I have this massive crush on her. (why else would I be updating my LJ, seriously). I've kinda crushed on her for a few months (she is, in fact, the subject of my last couple of posts); asked her out even, and got shot down. We, if anything, have become even better friends since then.

I'm a glutton for punishment, as we all know, so I kept on crushin', of course. Then I decided that obviously we weren't ever going to happen, and that if I kept on crushin' I was going to end up losing a really good friend. Then I won arena football tickets. Before the game, was a free Aaron Shust concert. She, of course, loves Aaron Shust, so I asked her if she wanted to go, figuring on a definitive no. She, mystifyingly, says yes. The day of the event, I go to pick her up. She's of course not ready (what, a girl be ready on time? hahahah!). Her mom is talking to me, about how she's really on my side and thinks I'm a great guy and would be a great match for her daughter, and in fact the only thing she's worried about is that I used to smoke pot. We chat for a few minutes, J is finally ready, and we leave. Have a blast. Just a good ol' time. Sunday morning, her car won't start, and she calls asking if I can come get her and bring her to church. I'm already running late, but of course, say yes. I get there, she's freaking out. We go to church, missing Sunday school. That night, she rides with leigha to church (who lives much closer, and also has to pretty much drive by there anyway), we are going to go eat afterwards, J wants to, Leigha's all "i gotta go home" J's like 'fine.' I'm like 'i can take you home, if you wanna come with us.' So, she comes. I hug Leigha bye, she's like 'uhh, you're welcome' I laugh, yay. Have more fun.

Wednesday or Thursday, I wanted chic fil a, and I went to get J, got chic fil a, then went to leigha's house. MORE fun had by us all. Afterwards, I drop J back at her house, and go to work. At this point, I'm kinda wondering what's going on with us. I decide to pray about it. I get a very strong 'it's time you take a chance on her again' feeling. I of course do nothing about it...yet.

Yesterday was David's birthday. He turned 18. There was a party at his house. I figured J wouldn't be able to find his house, so I offered to get pick her up. Get her, her mom says, right out of the gate 'YOU NEED TO HURRY AND MAKE YOUR MOVE' Party is awesome. We stopped at Wal Mart on the way to get a shirt + card. The card is signed from the two of us, and I mention that it kinda looks like we're married, we laugh, yay. After the party, we went to see Superman Returns. excellent movie.

Soooo, yeah. For all intents and purposes, we're together. We're just not 'together'. I get that I need to make a move, but, my goodness. The gist of all this, is that I'm a retarded idiot. But we all already knew that, didn't we. :)

Tomorrow I'm hanging out with that girl :)

Yes, THAT one.



Too bad i currently have a fever of 101.3!! of COURSE I would choose NOW to get sick! grr!

Sooo

My friend Tiffany is being a douche. I called her today, left her a message. I was not sober. I said "hey, I"m just saying hi, I guess you're out with your boyfriend; that shithead's older brother?, what the heck is his name, anyway? Steve? Tom? Thomas? Clark? Kent? David? George? Fabio? what? anyway bye!"

she complained that she was getting sick of me claiming that they were fucking and that I damn well did know his name.

I did not.

It's Matt.





ALso, I have this massive crush on this girl (not tiffany, this other girl) that I have precisely 0 chance with.

Story of my life, yes?

But we're going 'walking' allegedly on Wednesday.

I'm not doing a very good job of staying in her field of view.



Anybody still read this ever?

That girl from Flyleaf is one of the most fuckable girls ever. Holy crap!

www.pandora.com is an interseting site.